a lil catching up

Well it sure has been a while since I was last on here. It seems like life just got a better piece of me. Well I am finally playing softball again after braking my ankle 7 months ago. Oh my, that has been a mess! I have been so grateful for the friends and it is just shown to me more and more everyday. I was never good at making “girl” friends always much better at being friends with guys. Well thankfully I met girls that are the same way and we all get along great. Our friendship started awhile ago and has done nothing but gotten stronger! I even got up at 2:30 am to go shopping with Misty and Jennifer on black Friday. Yeah I am totally not a morning person or a night person… lol =) We had a great time! In the middle of our shopping we went to IHOP for breakfast. It was a good thing too because we were all starving! Most of my Christmas shopping was completed that day! Wondering if I will do it again next year. I think next year I had better go to bed at 6 pm to wake up at 2:30 am. lol

Like 2 weeks ago we celebrated Dustin’s birthday. We grilled out at Scott and Allie’s house and hung out for a bit. After awhile we hit the town. I think there was a group of 10 of us that went out… It was an interesting night. I would have to say the last part of the night was much better then the middle part. Totally not going into details though! =) Met some new people and we shall see what comes from that.

I have really been working hard at changing my life. There have been “monsters” in my life that just get to me everyday. I am finally seeing that I am much better then all that mess and I can move on. It’s been a little hard because when you are comfortable with something it feels so right. Unfortunally though it isn’t always right. Life has been great. I have so much to be smiling about. Its amazing how blessed you will become when you let those “monsters” go and go to the Lord for help. The Lord has done great things in my life, and I am looking forward to the next path I am put on.

SHARAYAH'S 21st BIRTHDAY

Well lets start off with this has actually been a better month then I thought… For those who were wondering… Well on March 18th Misty and I got to celebrate Sharayah’s 21st birthday along with her family and other friends… The evening started off with me getting off work, changing really quick at work, and driving to Joe T’s in Fort Worth. Well when I arrived there was already a line to get a table for outside on the patio… So I got in line so I would be able to get a table ready for 20 people… When the hostess came to me to ask how many people I had I told her I needed a table for 20 and she said she would not be able to get a table together until we had everyone there… So what I was not told on the phone when I had called earlier… So as I waited in line very patiently I began to gather people. Well needless to say after waiting in line for a table of 20 for over an hour… Misty starts to count the people again and we realize we need a table for more like 30-35. GREAT! I made Misty go and tell the hostess… lol Well we wait almost another whole hour and then we finally get seated. Dinner was great. Tim, Misty and I shared fajitas… After dinner Misty and I went to go and get the cake from the from that I brought… We had candles to put on there. We even had a tinkerbell candle to put on there but when I was taking it out of the package, I broke off her head. It was horrible! Misty and I could not stop laughing… Everyone ate their cake and then started to leave… It was a work night.

THE ROSE

Some say love, it is a riverThat drowns the tender reed.Some say love, it is a razorThat leaves your soul to bleed.Some say love, it is a hunger,an endless aching need.I say love, it is a flower,and you its only seed.


It's the heart afraid of breakingThat never learns to dance.It's the dream afraid of wakingThat never takes the chance.It's the one, who won't be taken,Who cannot seem to give,and the soul afraid of dyin’That never learns to live.


When the night has been too lonelyand the road has been to long,and you think that love is onlyfor the lucky and the strong,just remember in the winterfar beneath the bitter snowslies the seed that with the sun's lovein the spring becomes the rose.




THIS SONG IS SO TRUE... OMGosh!

Well Misty blogged so I guess it is my turn now. lol Life has been really great of late. I have grown with some amazing girls, that I thank the Lord for everyday. Misty and I met through a girl named Brittany that I went to high school with, and Sharayah and I met through Misty. =) These two girls have really been there for me as I would hope that I have been there for them. I have always prayed for a friendship that would not get be able to get strained or broken by anything. With I have been blessed with 2!.!.! For the past 3 weeks or so I believe Sharayah and I have been going up to Misty’s work and having dinner up there. Its been a lot of fun cause we get to see Misty as well as hang out together. Tim (Misty’s husband) and Bryan (Misty and Tim’s friend) have joined up with us too. (When they are not too cool for us.) I am trying to get together this baby shower for Allison that is happening NEXT WEEKEND!!! I have asked Misty and Sharayah if they would like to come and help me co-host the party. I think that would be great if they did. I am sure that I am gonna need their help! Allison’s baby is due the end of March sometime… Yeah getting a little stressed as we approach that time and I am not even the one that is pregnant. lol But I can not wait till little Chelsea is here. My good friend Paul’s mom has a stroke on Sunday night and was rushed to the ER. After doing a catscan they found she was bleeding from the center of her brain. Unfortuanlly she couldn’t talk and do anything really. Paul stayed by her side and continued to coach her in talking and remembering people. Later Monday evening she was able to talk some. Early Tuesday morning Paul was very exhausted and very dehydrated. He ended up having a seizure around 6am. As Misty would say, “When it rains, it pours.” Thank the Lord that Paul is doing absolutely fine now, his mom is still in ICU. The plans as of right now are to get her released from ICU so she can then go to a rehab place and live there for 15 days to work on her speech, walking, talking, and just everyday things. My mom and sister went to the store yesterday and got some food to take to Paul to make sure he had some meals. I delivered the food to him last night and get him a big hug. He looked so exhausted, but that is very understandable during this stressful time. I know the enemy is trying his best to win Paul back being he is a new believer and follower of the Lord. I am so proud of him though, and how he is just making sure to embrace the Lords love and not see this as the Lord’s work. Thank you for any prayers that you may give for Paul and his family against the enemy and through this very trying time. FYI: Its Friday night again so guess what that means??? Yep, you got it night to go eat at Misty’s work with Sharayah, Bryan and Tim… I think. But Sharayah and I for sure! I can not wait! Oh yeah I almost forgot wonderful Valentines Day. Well this is the FIRST year I haven’t had a so called Valentine really. So I was at my sisters volleyball tournament most of the day and then my family and I were suppose to go out to eat dinner together. Well my mom had the flu, my sister wasn’t hungry so they all just went home. My mom goes well why don’t you go and get something and bring it home. Yeah okay. Well I went to Schlotzsky's and got something. Well when the guy handed me my food he looked at me and said, “Well I hope you have a better Valentines then what you are having…” Guess it showed I was eating by myself cause I only got one meal… Oh well. I hate the Hallmark holiday anyway. Well until next time… Keep your head high and don’t let the friends go that will stand by you forever!

Okay so I am sitting here bored as ever thinking about my life and where I want it to go. So I have been single now for awhile and Misty keeps telling me to stop looking. Which honestly I think I pretty much have, but maybe not. So I was so hopeful for something to happen between me and this guy I know through my sister. But I guess we both spoke up to late and he was already in a relationship. Story of my life seriously. It seems like every guy that I talk to or whatever is just there for a good time. That may have worked for the old me who never wanted to get married, but not now. I want something real something that means the world to me. About a month ago I decided to contact Robert. We dated about 3 years ago and he was a really good guy back then. Well we went on our “first” date after 3 years last week. I think we had a great time. Really it was like getting to know him all over again. We were supposed to go out last night but he had to cancel and reschedule because he wouldn’t be off work in time and would probably have to go back tonight. That I thought was too much to ask. So I am kinda bummed about that. I was really looking forward to his company. I even dressed all cute for work. =( It seems that I can never get things to work out the way they are suppose too. Either that or I am just plain trying to hard. I seem to make every guy I talk to mad or annoyed with me.

So I have been donating for this little girl named Gracie for months now. She is my good friends little daughter. She is struggling from a brain tumor on her spinal cord. I have tried for the past 2 weeks to donate and my iron has been to low, and seems to get lower each time I go back. This really is breaking my heart because I honestly look forward to helping. I have this feeling that the new medication that my doctor put me on is the problem with my iron. But as of right now I have no way to prove that. Last night mom and I were talking and she started me on these vitamins to boost my iron. I am really hoping that it works cause this is terrible.

Looking back on 2008

Going back and reflecting on 2008 is going to be interesting…
Nothing truly spectacular happened other then just really finding myself and spending time with my family and friends. Over the past year I was able to attend a lot of weddings there for I am boycotting any to come. Good thing I am not getting married anytime soon… lol
2007 was a tough year and my prayer for 2008 was to have my eyes opened and the Lord did just that. I have been holding in a lot of pain from 3 years ago and thought I would never be able to be forgiven for what I had done. My mom was looking at classes online at church and found the perfect one that was a freedom life group. Since I have forgiven myself for a lot of things and now know that we have a very loving God who forgave me a long time ago my life is finally turning around.
In May my good friend Misty got married and I was the DJ in her wedding. Let me tell you about stress. I was so nervous that I was going to mess up her big day all because I played the wrong song. Thank goodness I took lots of notes at the rehearsal… lol Her wedding was beautiful as ever and everything went smooth for all I know. You know what I don’t even think I drank at all, since I am notorious for drinking the WHOLE margarita machine by myself.
June my mom and I took a trip to South Padre which was really nice to just get away and spend time with her. I absolutely love to go fishing and she even went fishing with me while we were down there. Neither of us had ever been before so it was a new experience. While we were fishing we caught 8 fish I believe and the filet them right there on the boat. We then took them to a local restaurant and they blackened them and cook it. It was amazing. I am you remember that I am absolutely in love with sea turtles. While in South Padre they have a sea turtle rescue facility that we were able to go to and see the turtles. I think this made the whole trip worth while. For the longest time growing up I always wanted to ride a horse on the beach you know like what you see in the movies off into the sunset… Sounds romantic right? Yeah not so much with 30 other people and your mom. But that was nice too.
July was a little different last year. I usually go to see the fireworks with my family but instead last year went with Allison and her family… It was really neat to see Savannah get all excited about the bright lights in the sky.
August marked the one year anniversary of my fathers passing. I thought that it was going to be a lot harder then what it was. I guess I have to thank the amazing God we have for giving me the forgiveness I needed to heal from that situation. May he rest in peace now.
October Sara and I took Savannah trick or treating in my neighborhood. Allison and Scott came over and we showed them around and it was great fun. Sara was dressed up at Cinderella and Savannah was a pirate. The next day they came and watched Sara play soccer and Savannah kept cheering for Cinderella and wondering why she wasn’t in her dress. We had to explain that she couldn’t wear it to play soccer cause she would get it all dirty. Of course to a 3 year old that makes no sense at all…
November my family and I headed to California for my cousins wedding. We had not seen this part of the family in about 12 years. A lot of the family my sister Sara was just getting to meet for the first time. Kelly’s wedding turned out wonderful and her husband is really sweet. They really are a match made in heaven. I am looking forward to the relationship that I will be able to continue with my extended family.
December we pretty much just hung out at home. My sister Sara was released from her soccer club (her choice). Other then that it was pretty normal. New Years Eve I hung out with some of my great friends from softball. That is when I can really tell that my life has turned a corner for the better. This is the first New Years I wasn’t out partying.
I can not wait to see what 2009 has in store for me. I know that whatever the Lord has planned will be great.

Goodbye 2008

Well the year is almost over and I dont have much time... So I will do a recap on 2008 when I return... Hope your looking forward to it... hehe

Oh and check out the new hair color... ; P