Okay so I am sitting here bored as ever thinking about my life and where I want it to go. So I have been single now for awhile and Misty keeps telling me to stop looking. Which honestly I think I pretty much have, but maybe not. So I was so hopeful for something to happen between me and this guy I know through my sister. But I guess we both spoke up to late and he was already in a relationship. Story of my life seriously. It seems like every guy that I talk to or whatever is just there for a good time. That may have worked for the old me who never wanted to get married, but not now. I want something real something that means the world to me. About a month ago I decided to contact Robert. We dated about 3 years ago and he was a really good guy back then. Well we went on our “first” date after 3 years last week. I think we had a great time. Really it was like getting to know him all over again. We were supposed to go out last night but he had to cancel and reschedule because he wouldn’t be off work in time and would probably have to go back tonight. That I thought was too much to ask. So I am kinda bummed about that. I was really looking forward to his company. I even dressed all cute for work. =( It seems that I can never get things to work out the way they are suppose too. Either that or I am just plain trying to hard. I seem to make every guy I talk to mad or annoyed with me.

So I have been donating for this little girl named Gracie for months now. She is my good friends little daughter. She is struggling from a brain tumor on her spinal cord. I have tried for the past 2 weeks to donate and my iron has been to low, and seems to get lower each time I go back. This really is breaking my heart because I honestly look forward to helping. I have this feeling that the new medication that my doctor put me on is the problem with my iron. But as of right now I have no way to prove that. Last night mom and I were talking and she started me on these vitamins to boost my iron. I am really hoping that it works cause this is terrible.