Okay so I am sitting here bored as ever thinking about my life and where I want it to go. So I have been single now for awhile and Misty keeps telling me to stop looking. Which honestly I think I pretty much have, but maybe not. So I was so hopeful for something to happen between me and this guy I know through my sister. But I guess we both spoke up to late and he was already in a relationship. Story of my life seriously. It seems like every guy that I talk to or whatever is just there for a good time. That may have worked for the old me who never wanted to get married, but not now. I want something real something that means the world to me. About a month ago I decided to contact Robert. We dated about 3 years ago and he was a really good guy back then. Well we went on our “first” date after 3 years last week. I think we had a great time. Really it was like getting to know him all over again. We were supposed to go out last night but he had to cancel and reschedule because he wouldn’t be off work in time and would probably have to go back tonight. That I thought was too much to ask. So I am kinda bummed about that. I was really looking forward to his company. I even dressed all cute for work. =( It seems that I can never get things to work out the way they are suppose too. Either that or I am just plain trying to hard. I seem to make every guy I talk to mad or annoyed with me.
So I have been donating for this little girl named Gracie for months now. She is my good friends little daughter. She is struggling from a brain tumor on her spinal cord. I have tried for the past 2 weeks to donate and my iron has been to low, and seems to get lower each time I go back. This really is breaking my heart because I honestly look forward to helping. I have this feeling that the new medication that my doctor put me on is the problem with my iron. But as of right now I have no way to prove that. Last night mom and I were talking and she started me on these vitamins to boost my iron. I am really hoping that it works cause this is terrible.
Monday, January 26, 2009
Monday, January 19, 2009
Looking back on 2008
Going back and reflecting on 2008 is going to be interesting…
Nothing truly spectacular happened other then just really finding myself and spending time with my family and friends. Over the past year I was able to attend a lot of weddings there for I am boycotting any to come. Good thing I am not getting married anytime soon… lol
2007 was a tough year and my prayer for 2008 was to have my eyes opened and the Lord did just that. I have been holding in a lot of pain from 3 years ago and thought I would never be able to be forgiven for what I had done. My mom was looking at classes online at church and found the perfect one that was a freedom life group. Since I have forgiven myself for a lot of things and now know that we have a very loving God who forgave me a long time ago my life is finally turning around.
In May my good friend Misty got married and I was the DJ in her wedding. Let me tell you about stress. I was so nervous that I was going to mess up her big day all because I played the wrong song. Thank goodness I took lots of notes at the rehearsal… lol Her wedding was beautiful as ever and everything went smooth for all I know. You know what I don’t even think I drank at all, since I am notorious for drinking the WHOLE margarita machine by myself.
June my mom and I took a trip to South Padre which was really nice to just get away and spend time with her. I absolutely love to go fishing and she even went fishing with me while we were down there. Neither of us had ever been before so it was a new experience. While we were fishing we caught 8 fish I believe and the filet them right there on the boat. We then took them to a local restaurant and they blackened them and cook it. It was amazing. I am you remember that I am absolutely in love with sea turtles. While in South Padre they have a sea turtle rescue facility that we were able to go to and see the turtles. I think this made the whole trip worth while. For the longest time growing up I always wanted to ride a horse on the beach you know like what you see in the movies off into the sunset… Sounds romantic right? Yeah not so much with 30 other people and your mom. But that was nice too.
July was a little different last year. I usually go to see the fireworks with my family but instead last year went with Allison and her family… It was really neat to see Savannah get all excited about the bright lights in the sky.
August marked the one year anniversary of my fathers passing. I thought that it was going to be a lot harder then what it was. I guess I have to thank the amazing God we have for giving me the forgiveness I needed to heal from that situation. May he rest in peace now.
October Sara and I took Savannah trick or treating in my neighborhood. Allison and Scott came over and we showed them around and it was great fun. Sara was dressed up at Cinderella and Savannah was a pirate. The next day they came and watched Sara play soccer and Savannah kept cheering for Cinderella and wondering why she wasn’t in her dress. We had to explain that she couldn’t wear it to play soccer cause she would get it all dirty. Of course to a 3 year old that makes no sense at all…
November my family and I headed to California for my cousins wedding. We had not seen this part of the family in about 12 years. A lot of the family my sister Sara was just getting to meet for the first time. Kelly’s wedding turned out wonderful and her husband is really sweet. They really are a match made in heaven. I am looking forward to the relationship that I will be able to continue with my extended family.
December we pretty much just hung out at home. My sister Sara was released from her soccer club (her choice). Other then that it was pretty normal. New Years Eve I hung out with some of my great friends from softball. That is when I can really tell that my life has turned a corner for the better. This is the first New Years I wasn’t out partying.
I can not wait to see what 2009 has in store for me. I know that whatever the Lord has planned will be great.
Nothing truly spectacular happened other then just really finding myself and spending time with my family and friends. Over the past year I was able to attend a lot of weddings there for I am boycotting any to come. Good thing I am not getting married anytime soon… lol
2007 was a tough year and my prayer for 2008 was to have my eyes opened and the Lord did just that. I have been holding in a lot of pain from 3 years ago and thought I would never be able to be forgiven for what I had done. My mom was looking at classes online at church and found the perfect one that was a freedom life group. Since I have forgiven myself for a lot of things and now know that we have a very loving God who forgave me a long time ago my life is finally turning around.
In May my good friend Misty got married and I was the DJ in her wedding. Let me tell you about stress. I was so nervous that I was going to mess up her big day all because I played the wrong song. Thank goodness I took lots of notes at the rehearsal… lol Her wedding was beautiful as ever and everything went smooth for all I know. You know what I don’t even think I drank at all, since I am notorious for drinking the WHOLE margarita machine by myself.
June my mom and I took a trip to South Padre which was really nice to just get away and spend time with her. I absolutely love to go fishing and she even went fishing with me while we were down there. Neither of us had ever been before so it was a new experience. While we were fishing we caught 8 fish I believe and the filet them right there on the boat. We then took them to a local restaurant and they blackened them and cook it. It was amazing. I am you remember that I am absolutely in love with sea turtles. While in South Padre they have a sea turtle rescue facility that we were able to go to and see the turtles. I think this made the whole trip worth while. For the longest time growing up I always wanted to ride a horse on the beach you know like what you see in the movies off into the sunset… Sounds romantic right? Yeah not so much with 30 other people and your mom. But that was nice too.
July was a little different last year. I usually go to see the fireworks with my family but instead last year went with Allison and her family… It was really neat to see Savannah get all excited about the bright lights in the sky.
August marked the one year anniversary of my fathers passing. I thought that it was going to be a lot harder then what it was. I guess I have to thank the amazing God we have for giving me the forgiveness I needed to heal from that situation. May he rest in peace now.
October Sara and I took Savannah trick or treating in my neighborhood. Allison and Scott came over and we showed them around and it was great fun. Sara was dressed up at Cinderella and Savannah was a pirate. The next day they came and watched Sara play soccer and Savannah kept cheering for Cinderella and wondering why she wasn’t in her dress. We had to explain that she couldn’t wear it to play soccer cause she would get it all dirty. Of course to a 3 year old that makes no sense at all…
November my family and I headed to California for my cousins wedding. We had not seen this part of the family in about 12 years. A lot of the family my sister Sara was just getting to meet for the first time. Kelly’s wedding turned out wonderful and her husband is really sweet. They really are a match made in heaven. I am looking forward to the relationship that I will be able to continue with my extended family.
December we pretty much just hung out at home. My sister Sara was released from her soccer club (her choice). Other then that it was pretty normal. New Years Eve I hung out with some of my great friends from softball. That is when I can really tell that my life has turned a corner for the better. This is the first New Years I wasn’t out partying.
I can not wait to see what 2009 has in store for me. I know that whatever the Lord has planned will be great.
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